Diane Wakoski's poem " I Have Had To Learn To Live With My Face" is full of overwhelming rage. I was drawn to it because it made an emotional impression on me. There is so much anger, bitterness, pain, envy and betrayal by others and herself. The word "betrayal" appears several times:
that my friends tell me is so full of character;
my face
"my face that I wish you could bruise and batter
and destroy, napalm it, throw acid in it,
so that I might have another "
This statement constitutes the pinnacle of self-hate and self-anger. It's strident and of overwhelming intensity.
My face
Yes--though not only rage... a lot of issues suggested in this rather long poem--about the self in realtion to itself, the other, the world...also some rater striking images just after the ones you quoted...I wonder, is there anthing that takes us beyond this rage "against the dying of the light," to quote (and misapply)as Dylan Thomas? A comparison to Waldman's "Makeup on Empty Space" mght be fruitful....BTW--where did you find this poem, as it doesn't seem to be on any of the usual sites... ?
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